Boundaries

I promised myself that this year any connections that are over are to stay that way and any I reconnected with last year, if things revert back to how they once were, I'm ending them.  I'm tired of the patterns and emotional rollercoaster that always happens. Even just waiting for the reconnection to just end.  

There's a reason for the connections not lasting and it's boundaries. 

Yes you are going to piss people off when you decide to fully cut the cords that bind, however you are embracing new and better connections when you do so. 

I just cut off my last yo-yo relationship. I have him a chance in August last year. Last time I spoke to him was in October. Nothing from him. 

No Happy Halloween 

No Happy Thanksgiving 

No Merry Christmas (even though in 2022 he got mad at me for not wishing him a Merry Christmas due to his disappearing acts.)

No Happy New Year

Wished him a Happy Birthday on January 8th, no response. 

No Happy Birthday on my birthday. 

And I don't no Happy Anniversary or Happy Valentine's Day. 

What sucks the most is that when he was around he would make me feel special, loved, protected, wanted.  He disappears for months at a time.  It's worse than ghosting. This is Zombie. Coming back from the dead every few months to declare love for you then to disappear for months again. 

Do you know how delulu I sound saying I have a boyfriend but he disappears on me for months and doesn't talk to me? 

This is unacceptable. This pattern is atrocious. I've just never...

So I finally closed that door and threw away the key. I also felt like he was cheating on me, can't prove it but why would you disappear for months and not contact the person you claim you will always love at least every other day? 

This was needed. 

I'm just done with the constant reconnections that eventually end and restart. 

I'm tired of trying to fix things.  

I want truer, solid, stable connections. Not this 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and so on chances being given. 

We are just not to be. Take the hint and move on. 

New Reading Coming Soon: What Do I Need to Know About Myself

I saw a question in a forum that made me ask this same question, but to myself. This is what I got as a tarot reading. 

Overall energy: 7 of Cups

My head in the clouds. Dreaming of the life I want and the choices I need to make. Is it too far out of my reach? Or can I bring my dreams into reality. The need to create a balance from dreams and reality. 

Ace of Cups:

Spiritual connection. Pure love. Feeling love. Open heart to the Divine. 

Page of Cups:

Love deeply without boundaries. Following inner guidance. A healer. Listening to the Divine to follow purpose. 

4 of Wands: 

Give gratitude. Having support. Giving support. Stable. Success and celebration. Social. Encouraging others. 

I thought this could be a powerful reading to offer to help others to know what they need to know about themselves. 

Many of us do not see the full potential we have. Or may be stuck in a negative, depressive mindset about themselves. I geek this reading will give clarity and understanding as to who we truly are. 

Illuminating the shadow to see your glorious light. 

Blessings!